Lisa Bonnema

Mom. Writer. Speaker.

Hello, Sunshine

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Well, we are back this week linking up to Small Style at  Mama Loves Papa. Sorry we missed last week, but you know, we had some extra snuggling to do after the whirlwind of surgery. We did have a little excitement Friday and ended up back at the hospital with a high temp, but we were home before midnight and back in our own beds, which is always a blessing to this mama.

The temp is now gone, and our rock star is on the mend. She is already trying to figure out how to scoot around on those bandaged legs! Obviously these photos were taken pre-surgery, but trust me, we are finding ways to rock those casts. Stay tuned!

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I have to admit that there is always this “down time” for me after we go through surgery or one of our Spina Bifida “reality checks.” The adrenaline (and the prayers!) get me through it all at the time, but it’s the “after shock” that tends to be hard on me emotionally. Life does indeed go on, but my heart needs a few days to get back into the swing of things.

Although part of me feels weak for not jumping back in full force with thanksgiving, the other part of me is starting to realize that a little “down time” is probably healthy. It gives me time to feel, to reflect. I mean, one minute I’m sending my baby off in a stranger’s arms to be operated on for almost 5 hours, and the next day I’m getting Emma off the bus and searching for misplaced library books. It’s all a bit much for any one person to process.

But as I seek Him to guide me through this journey, He — as always — is enlightening my perspective and easing the burden. The clouds are now parting, and and I am starting to see the rays of sunshine. And although I’d love to think that someday this might all become second nature to me, somehow I don’t really think that will be the case. My trust in Him might grow as we get farther in this journey, but I have a feeling my human nature will always take me back to Him, asking for His help, His encouragement.

And, really, isn’t that the point?

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Making it Work… 
Shirt:   Carters (1st b-day gift)
Pants:  Baby Gap (niece hand-me-down)
Shoes: Star Child from Urban Baby Runway (Emma hand-me-down)

Surgery Success!

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Well, we finally made it to surgery #4, and it was a success. Brooklyn is now recovering and should be heading home first thing tomomorrow morning. She is still pretty hoarse and drowsy from the anestesia, but Little Miss Nosey is too busy checking everything out and hasn’t been interested in napping. She just finally decided to get some much-needed rest. I’m hoping she sleeps well tonight.

So far, she is being a good sport about her legs, and we are hoping that continues for the next 7 weeks. She will be in splints (half casts) for about 2 weeks and then full leg casts for another 5 weeks. After that, the casts come off, and we get to work on standing!

As always, thank you so much for your prayers these last few weeks. They are powerful, and they are being answered.

Much love to all of you!

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On the Move: Take THAT Spina Bifida!

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Guess who decided to move just a few days before we put heavy casts on her legs!?!! And she did it when Mommy wasn’t home, the little booger. I can barely watch this without crying my eyes out.

I wish I could describe the overwhelming sense of gratitude my heart feels, but words could never do it justice. I am so very, very proud of our rock star, and I am so very, very thankful for a God who answers my prayers.

I’ll let the video say the rest.

“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.”
Romans 12:12

Quick Update

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So, yeah, no surgery again this week due to Tuesday’s fever and what appears to be an ear infection that never quite went away. That’s three canceled surgery dates in one month. Annoying, yes, but really, I’m okay with it.

Granted, I was beyond frustrated Tuesday morning when I felt Brooklyn’s hot head, but as the day went on, I realized it was absolutely ridiculous to be upset about not taking her in for surgery. I mean, who wants to take their kid in for surgery?

Last night, as I nursed and rocked Brooklyn to sleep, I thought about the fact that I could have been doing the very same thing in a hospital rocking chair. I could have been kissing my hubby goodbye as he headed home to our girls.  Our girls could have had someone other than me tucking them in for the night and sending them off to school in the morning.

But instead, I was nursing a snuggly, sweet-smelling baby as my other two babies slept soundly next door, and my hubby waited on the couch with a cozy blanket. And I got to start my morning with all four of them piled into my bed. Really, there was no where else I wanted to be — and for that, I was grateful.

Yes, I want to get this surgery done and over with. But it isn’t an emergency (thank God!), and I don’t want to send my baby off to the OR if I have even an inkling that she is not at her best. I will wait until the time is right, whether that takes another week or another month (although hopefully not another month… 🙂

As always, thank you for your prayers. We promise to keep you posted. Until then, there is a man and cozy blanket calling my name. Have a great weekend, everyone!