So, yeah, no surgery again this week due to Tuesday’s fever and what appears to be an ear infection that never quite went away. That’s three canceled surgery dates in one month. Annoying, yes, but really, I’m okay with it.
Granted, I was beyond frustrated Tuesday morning when I felt Brooklyn’s hot head, but as the day went on, I realized it was absolutely ridiculous to be upset about not taking her in for surgery. I mean, who wants to take their kid in for surgery?
Last night, as I nursed and rocked Brooklyn to sleep, I thought about the fact that I could have been doing the very same thing in a hospital rocking chair. I could have been kissing my hubby goodbye as he headed home to our girls. Our girls could have had someone other than me tucking them in for the night and sending them off to school in the morning.
But instead, I was nursing a snuggly, sweet-smelling baby as my other two babies slept soundly next door, and my hubby waited on the couch with a cozy blanket. And I got to start my morning with all four of them piled into my bed. Really, there was no where else I wanted to be — and for that, I was grateful.
Yes, I want to get this surgery done and over with. But it isn’t an emergency (thank God!), and I don’t want to send my baby off to the OR if I have even an inkling that she is not at her best. I will wait until the time is right, whether that takes another week or another month (although hopefully not another month… 🙂
As always, thank you for your prayers. We promise to keep you posted. Until then, there is a man and cozy blanket calling my name. Have a great weekend, everyone!